TO POST OR NOT TO POST

Posting has not been what I expected. At first, I thought it would be a lot like journaling. I would process my thoughts on paper, and it would help me deal with anger or anxiety and the like. But journaling is highly personal, and it is written quickly and in shorthand. And it's meant for your eyes only, or perhaps you'll read it to your therapist someday. In order to journal I need to feel like my writing is safe and private. Posting is much different. It's much more laborious. You have to worry about accuracy, spelling, grammar. More eyes are intended to see it. And because of all of these demands, it has been difficult to post as often as I journal. It's hard to find the time. Whereas you don't intend for anyone to read your journal or diary, the very purpose of a post is to share your thoughts with others and hopefully persuade them. You need an audience. But if no one is reading your post, or it seems no one is reading your post, that can produce the very feelings that necessitate that you journal. So it is a vicious cycle. And as a result, I have found myself posting in fits and spurts. Consistency can be difficult. Discouragement creeps in all too often. And sometimes it just feels like I have nothing original to say. And then when I do feel like I have something to say it feels frustrating if no one is reading it. So there you have it. My cathartic explanation of how difficult and emotional posting can be. Having said all that, I really don't know that I have answered the question in my post's title. I guess the answer is still a work in progress.